CROOKED FEELINGS

 

All These Crooked Feelings (Sperry, Ott)

 

I quit believin’ in all these crooked feelings

Other people’s demons that lie through a smile

I quit believin’ there’s one good solid reason why it’s considered treason

If I won’t fight the war

 

I quit for love

I quit for love

 

I quit believin’ that everyone’s deceiving

If someone’s out to get me just come and get me now

I quit deciding there’s ever truth in hiding

Yeah I quit denying all I am anyhow

 

I quit for love

I quit for love

I quit for love

Ain’t no looking back

 

I quit believing it’s noble to be shrinking

Or noble to be thinking you’ll keep it to yourself

I quit resisting the calling of the mystics

There’s something in here missing

Dying to come out

 

I quit for love

I quit for love

I quit for love

I’m gonna be alright

 

 

Rewind (Sperry, Bond)

 

Remember in the morning 

when you'd reach out and pull me to you, oh to you

Every touch felt like you meant it

Every moment was electric with you, oh with you

We can't rewind, falling through time

 

Every day we get further away

From the life that we knew at the start

Sooner or later we must take a chance 

And I'm willing to take it if you are

 

When it's quiet in the evening

And I wonder if you're thinking of me

What do you see

No, it's not like the beginning

In this life we're not pretending but we

Have just what we need

We can't rewind, falling through time

 

Every day we get further away

From the life that we knew at the start

Sooner or later we must take a chance 

And I'm willing to take it if you are

 

 

Recover (Sperry, Bragg)

 

Another devastation, chaos in the street

Wish it was a nightmare, but I am not asleep

 

Scattered on the pavement, innocence again

Promise of a future, coming to an end

Did it mean anything, anything at all

 

How do we recover, recover, recover

 

Hiding in the silence of sanctuary stone

Or looking for an answer

In the safety of our home

 

No one is exempt, can we go back to the start

What are we afraid of losing, we’ve already fallen apart

Doesn’t that mean anything, anything at all

 

How do we recover, recover, recover

 

History stuck on repeat

Loss that begs for us to grieve

Can’t be frozen in disbelief

 

How do we recover, recover, recover

 

 

 

 

 

Cruel Expectations (Sperry, Shera)

 

I waited around, with my hands in my pockets

Shuffling boots on the pavement

And you, big man in town

They said you were hot-headed

But I see you're just a big kid

 

Time after time, you said lightning might strike

When it's only rain

 

Can't undo the things you have done

Such a fool to fall for the tale you spun

Cruel expectations

 

Now the curtain comes down

It's just me in the shadows

All the bright lights have burned out

 

Time after time, I said all the right lines

To play the game

 

Can't undo the things you have done

Such a fool to fall for the tale you spun

Cruel expectations

 

Our Biography (Sperry, Hecht)

 

When I see you in the morning

and you're dragging out of bed

the way you're looking at me

I flash back in my head

 

Way back in the beginning

Had no idea I was alone

I didn't know I was divided

Or that I hadn't found my home

 

They'll say the moment when I found you

I found the other half of me

That we were never really strangers

When they write our biography

 

In the early pages

They'll tel the story well

I'll see you in the cafe

and introduce myself

 

They'll say the moment when I found you

I found the other half of me

That we were never really strangers

When they write our biography

 

And woven through the chapters

Will be the thread as it unwinds

That we will hold to through the darkness

Leaving our loneliness behind

 

So come back in here beside me

Another day is done

Dream of all our favorite memories

And stories still to come

 

They'll say the moment when I found you

I found the other half of me

That we were never really strangers

When they write our biography

 

That we were never really strangers

When they write our biography

 

Look At Me (Sperry, Ott)

 

A million distractions

What was that you said

I’m dancing alone here

I'm standing on my head

 

Look at me

Look at me

Am I talking to myself

Pay attention to what I’m selling you

You don’t want nothing else

 

I wanna impress ya

I wanna make you proud

But the message must be hazy

Cause you can’t make it out

 

Look at me

Look at me

Am I talking to myself

Pay attention to what I’m doing here

I don’t want nothing else

 

There’s nothing like you

Nothing I can see

And there’s no one who loves you

Half as much as me

 

Look at me

Look at me

Am I talking to myself

Pay attention to what I’m telling you

I don’t want nothing else

 

Look at me

Look at me

Am I talking to myself

Pay attention to what I’m saying here

I don’t want nothing else

 

Ol' Will (Sperry)

 

Off the Pacific Coast Highway

Where the sea meets the skyway 

you can find him there

Down a sandy little road

In a blue mobile home 

with a hammock in the yard

What are you doing today, Will

Oh, just more of the same

 

Oh Will, you know he'll

Be up in the mountains near Topanga Canyon

Got his tools and his dog but he's lost his companion

Will he or won't he find a fine lady

Got an aching space to fill

The lonely summer of ol' Will

 

So he'll pack up his tools

Take a seat on the stoop 

of the house he made for them

And the sun slowly sets

And the record spins

Playing After the Gold Rush again

What are you doing tonight, Will

Oh, I don't know I just might

 

Oh Will, you know he'll

Be up in the mountains near Topanga Canyon

Got his board and his bike but he's lost his companion

Will he or won't he find a fine lady

Got an aching space to fill

The lonely summer of ol' Will

 

Oh, listen to the sea

When you're hurting she'll sing you to sleep

A new day brings a new start

So take heart

 

Oh Will, you know he'll

Be up in the mountains near Topanga Canyon

Got his tools and his dog but he's lost his companion

Will he or won't he find a fine lady

You know he always will

The lonely summer of ol' Will, the lonely summer of ol' Will

 

Wisteria (Sperry, Hecht)

 

Wisteria, showing off it's new perfume

Climbing up the window ledge into your room

In your dream, you're lying in your old backyard

Searching for another world, somewhere in the stars

Ooooh

 

Someone calls, switched on the back porch light

Grab your jar of fireflies and go back inside

The house is warm, everybody says goodnight

Settle down into your bed and close your eyes

Ooooh

 

In your dream, looking back on everything

Swaying with your oldest friend on the front porch swing

It's quiet now, you've said all that there is to say

Just breathe in the evening air and drift away

Ooooh

 

Over Their Bones (Sperry, Winstanley) 

 

The land was forgotten like a whisper in the wind

Swallowed by ivy, by the creepers and weeds

Where headstones have crumbled under blankets of moss

Names forsakes and lost

They came here as farmers, masons and maids

Worked through the seasons in the sweat and the rain

But the fruits of their labor were never their own

All for another man's home

 

Over their bones, over their bones

Long passed over like a river stone

Over their bones, willows weep, a lonesome moon 

Is left to grieve

 

I walk in the forest, brush the webs form my face

And fall through the pages of my history, my name

I can tell you the face on the dollars and dimes

But I can't trace my family line

 

Over their bones, over their bones

Long passed over like a river stone

Over their bones, willows weep, a lonesome moon 

Is left to grieve

 

With greatest care one man tended the grounds

Knew the map and he passed it down

What would he think, what would he say

Since the days a dollar bought a grave

 

Over their bones, over their bones

Long passed over like a river stone

Over their bones, willows weep, a lonesome moon 

Is left to grieve

 

 

Highest Hill (Sperry)

 

I am leaving on a journey today

Packing up this soul in this skin

There are things I've been meaning to change

I don't think I can without going

 

And I will climb, climb, climb the highest hill

'Til I'm face to face with the sun

My eyes will see their burning reflection

Oh, I'm coming undone

 

Leave a trail of sorrow and shame

And all of the hurts I've held onto

They are much to heavy a weight 

To take all the places I want to

 

And I will climb, climb, climb the highest hill

'Til I'm face to face with the sun

My eyes will see their burning reflection

Oh, I'm coming undone

 

And when I come back down

I'll be the girl you loved and more

My feet meet the ground

More certain than ever before

 

And I will climb, climb, climb the highest hill

'Til I'm face to face with the sun

My eyes will see their burning reflection

Oh, I'm coming undone

 

 

So I'm leaving on a journey today

Taking all of these memories and years

There are things I've been meaning to say

In a voice unshackled by fears

 

 

 

 

STORYBOOK

January Moon

Twin scars, twin sparks

Colliding blindly between kindred hearts

I wish I’d paid attention the first time we touched

Didn’t know it would mean so much

 

Beat out the rhythm of my unborn love songs

They were waiting for you

Pull me closer

Kiss me under

The January moon

 

New year, not shy

You came to claim me much to my surprise

Resistance melts away with every move

Every touch responded to...

 

Not the One

I call you when I’m lonely

For you to come and hold me

Through the night, well that ain’t right

You want me completely

You whisper something sweetly

You think you should

Cause it feels good

It’ll hurt like hell

When it don’t end well

 

Don’t fall in love with me

I’m not the one you want me to be

Did I not make it clear

I don’t want to hurt you, dear

I told you from the start

I’m trying not to break your heart

Can we just have some fun

I’m not the one

 

You tell me that you love me

On nights when you’ve been drinking

Does it feel nice

But what a price

I don’t cut you any slack

When I don’t say it back

 

When the damage is done

You’ll see I’m not the one...

 

Alone Together

Got lost today I fell so far

Through the cracks of this old floor

Through the cobwebs and the scars

Of all the love I felt before

Saw the million things that I’ve done wrong

And all the ways I don’t belong

 

Oh it’s a slippery slope but there’s a sea of hope

Waiting to keep me afloat

And in the darkest night, no soul in sight

I find a boat to sail me home

‘Cause we are all alone, yeah we are all alone together

 

When we spoke today I felt the pangs

Of two hearts growing side by side

In every pause the silence hangs

And distance will not be denied

There’s a thousand things that I could say

But you would still be far away…

 

Storybook

Favorite places

Saturated in light

Illustrated

Scenes of a life

Turning pages

Never sure of what you’ll find

Painted faces

Move in and out of sight

They’re changing over time

 

In a storybook, storybook

All the love you gave

All the love you took

Living in a storybook

 

Rites of passage

Watch as boys turn into men

You’ll be the hero

To the heroine

 

Stole the villains sword for the war I fought

Did I break your heart to twist the plot

Strive for good or fall a little short

Do what I could to change the course of a storybook...

 

Me and the River

If I sit here all night

Will I grow into a tree

Will my arms turn to branches

By the hand that made me

Against the dirt

I dare not move an inch

Well the moon is full tonight

And I gotta soak it in

 

It’s just me and the river

Me and the rain

Come to wash away this pain

Oh river, take it away

 

I’m quiet tonight

But the world is loud

And loneliness magnifies every sound

The moon is high

My constant friend

And when you’re all alone you meet yourself again

 

All the days you were afraid

I’d be the one who got away

Looking back I see

You’re the one who got away from me...

 

Fall For You Again (Gayden/Sperry)

All the words exchanged

The seasons changed

Time begins

To soothe the pain

Just when I suspect I’m in the clear

What are you doing here?

 

Oooh, don’t take a step closer

Baby, please don’t flirt

You are flirting with disaster

And someone’s gonna get hurt

You say you wanna be my friend

Don’t let me fall for you again

 

Familiar hands

I know how you touch

I can’t stand

To know so much

You swear you moved on

Let’s not even try

But I see what’s in your eyes

 

If I were to say I’m different now

Would you believe, would you believe me

No matter how strong if you pull me close

My heart would melt, my heart is melting...

 

Meant Them at the Time

I used to know your body

Every square inch of skin

The lay of the land would come back quick

If I were to touch you again

Tell me every detail

How her hand feels in yours

Does she look good in the morning

Wait, please don’t say any more

 

What about the promises

What about the plans

We meant them at the time

We meant them at the time

What about forever

Did you change your mind

Were we telling lies

We meant them at the time

 

You didn’t ask me to wait

I didn’t ask you to stay

Instead we wept a thousand tears

On the stone of our love’s grave...

 

Take Your Time (Weber/Sperry)

Moon reflects on your road to home

Pour myself another glass

Hum a lazy lullaby

Count the hours as they pass

Been so long since I’ve touched your face

Or heard your boots cross the floor

I feel you racing back to me

But when you come through the door

 

Take your time

Love me slow

Take your time

Take all night to show

How you missed me

And you are mine

Gonna take our sweet sweet time

 

Breathless words buried in your shirt

You can’t squeeze me tight enough

No more waiting to give you all the love

That I been saving up

 

I don’t care when you go again

Baby ‘til then…

 

Sweet Afternoon

You call me in the morning time

I can tell in your voice that I’ve been on your mind

You say baby, can we spend a little time

I say darlin’, that sounds fine

 

Oh I fall for you like a skirt falls to the floor

Yeah you give me all you got but I want more

And every time you leave me

It’s always too soon

Oh what a sweet afternoon, oh what a sweet afternoon, oh what a sweet afternoon

 

Come over here, let’s lay in the shade of a tree

With my head on your chest

You can sing to me

We’ll make plans

I don’t care if we keep

Let’s just get lost in a sweet daydream

 

Let’s drive across the river, take me to your bed,

Make this afternoon

Last all night instead...

 

When a Year’s Gone By

I walked with myself in the woods today

And passed by a bench you and I sat upon

When we sat on the edge of the scariest change

Wondering where we would be when a year was gone

How many months since that conversation

Surely the seasons have turned a few times

Days flutter past and I try to be patient

To see where we’ll be when a year’s gone by

 

Slowly back and forth,

Slowly back and forth

You’ll be a current through my whole life

 

I lay in the sun and I’m bathed in white

You’re my mountain man

I’m your perfect wife

My wildest daydreams I see in the light

Or am I remembering another life...

 

 The Fair Song

You took me to the fair

I wore my yellow dress

The whole way there I kissed you

On your face, your hands, your neck

We rode all the fastest rides

And won a prize or two

When the band began

You asked me if I would dance with you

Oh, I danced with you

 

I felt years spin by

As you twirled me around

In your arms I was swept right off the ground

On the first night of July

Is where we begin

I can tell you our story

But I don’t know the end

 

You waltzed me all around this town

We found a home for rent

There we spread our things around

Spent countless hours in that bed

 

That’s the chance

Every romance takes

The further you fall

The harder a heart breaks...